Yeah blogging. Feel free to close if you don't want to read. No one forcing. I miss 211220111143. Yes totally. Why everything changes so fast. I'm stuck with the 8 month curse. I can't let go. But you did. Everytime. Without fail. I sometimes thought I'm useless. I can't forget and move on. What's wrong? It's really hard. 1 month 1 day still can't forget him. Cool or heartbreaking? I'm sorry brain, heart, and all my body parts. Letting you get hurt. Missing day by day. But he doesn't. He really gone. Gone without me staying by his side. My god. I'm mad. REALLY GOING INSANE. Today is the 19th. 2 more days to 21st. It suppose to be our 3rd monthsary. But all gone. Gone like the wind. No matter how I stay, how I wait, how long I hold onto, would you still come back for me? I doubt so. I'm struck. You taught my how to love you, but you didn't taught me how to stop. That's bad. Really bad. All I wish for on 21st. Is that you would come out and meet me. would it be so hard? :')

Hello readers. Back blogging before going to bed. Well.. Today's a boring day. Went to school in PE, assembly in library for the motivation talk. Simply boring. So wore my furry leopard print jacket and everyone thought I'm crazy as it was a sunny day. So headed for class to do work for the talks. Then had some games in the hall. And is called 'Resilience Rings' So everyone carried me and transfer me to the other side of the ring first, as I'M THE LIGHTEST IN CLASS, cool or what? So play that alot of time. After that, debrief! Sweet. So yes after that, headed to yewtee point to eat longjohn with my tomboyy! Well, as usual. Chats and bitch. So leave around 5 ? Then headed to habourfront to find parents then home. So yup. Stuck here. Being paranoid of him again. I don't know why. I ain't strong. I cry. I sad. No matter what. I still can't do it. So yeap. Tomorrow, staying at home and rest my eyes. I got seriously bigbig eyebag that need to be cure. so yeap sleeping time!

Basically, this post is just memories. Just read. Not much talking.

Still remember this photo? I took in your phone. There are more, but I didn't upload to my facebook.

Eating pizza hut with you at Habourfront.

- Westmall to eat the super sweet cupcakes I bake for you

- Eat pasta and fish and chip at pizza hut at habourfront.

- Waited for my fish and chip for 30 min.

- Went to singapore flyer, romantic there at the sea

- Singapore flyer for ice cream

- Quarrel at marina square on new year's eve

- Rest at your house

- Go shopping at bugis street

- Eating long john at centerpoint

- Romantic at the garden of vivo city

- Act cute around town

- Play a fool with each other

- Walk home from WestMall

- Waiting for me to get ready at my house.

But All this is just memories, why can't they be real again? I really miss it all, but what can I do.. Just waiting for you to be the real you again.

Hello readers, back here posting again! Just post before I sleep, so my blog doesn't looks dead alright? Well, This week has been a boring week. Everyday gone to school, skip lesson, absent from school. Thanks to school, now my eyebag getting bigger and bigger. I swear I'm going to sleep for the whole week of march holiday, to recover my eyebag! Worst lifetime ever. So study till friday! Headed to my DOODOO's house to slack and play! Was too bored that we actually were recording video for fun. Cool shit or what? Then headed to my house, doodoo was playing with my cow jacket while I went to bathe! Then headed to Jurong Point for dinner. After dinner went back home. Then came Saturday. Headed to DOODOO's house again. Didn't know why. But yea, go there see her study! Was eating while she was studying and there it goes again, recording video for boring purposes. Then headed for our dinner at yewtee point then off to study at limbang! Reached there, walked around then headed to somewhere else and charge her phone! Interesting enough? After charging phone, back home we go! So today's sunday. I bloody hate today! My eye hurts like there's not even a tomorrow. So yeah. I'm stuck with this stupid pain-ness for 1 whole day. Great or what? And tomorrow's monday! Heading back to sleep. Done with my pathetic post.

Hey readers, just one short post before I sleep? Alright. Headed back to school after so long. Yet I still absent from school that teachers are finding me. Yes, I fake a smile. When I'm out, I have to fake a smile out of my face, is hard, but that's the only thing I could do just to lead people to have the conception that I'm fine, when I'm not even fine. I drove myself crazy just to think of you. I pissed you off. Seriously, I really don't know what to do. I had to maintain but I'm trying hard already. I can't forget, I really can't, I won't. Stop asking me to forget nor give up. I really can't. Call me useless, call me dumb I don't mind. Forget our promises we made on 21st of december? I guess so. Well.. That's love. Short and sweet. Or long and hurtful?..

Deep down in my heart. I also been question by it, why aren't you back mine.My brain has to tackle those questions asked by my heart. Well.. I simply miss you, I can't forget you. It has been 3 weeks. What's seriously going on with me. Can't we fix everything back to what it is once ? I can't let go. I'm not satisfied with what the decision is. I hate this feeling.. Can't you just give another chance? It hurts alot to see you enjoying without me. Yes I'm a weak girl.. But It doesn't mean you can leave me behind. Going back to cityhall, singapore flyer, Wisma, WestMall, Nex, Plaza Sing, The Cathay, All those places we had been to. Yes memories of what we did together, spend to gather flash in my mind. I still want to bake cupcakes for you, with our name written on it. It's so sweet right? I regret dropping it on the floor. Now that you're gone. Everything really changes. I only want a time machine. Where I could pause everything at the day I went to your house, slack, play, talking craps. Just that moment when you hug me. I will paused it.. That very moment, it's all I need.